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Chimamanda Ngozi AdichieA modern alternative to SparkNotes and CliffsNotes, SuperSummary offers high-quality Study Guides with detailed chapter summaries and analysis of major themes, characters, and more.
Apollo is a colloquial Nigerian term for conjunctivitis, also known as pink eye. Allegedly, it gained this nickname because the first major epidemic of conjunctivitis in West Africa happened to coincide with the Apollo 11 moon landing. In the story, Apollo functions as a motif illuminating the changing relationship dynamics between Okenwa and Raphael. When Raphael comes down with Apollo, it heralds a shift in the boys’ interactions with each other. Okenwa, who before saw Raphael as wise and authoritative, learns that Raphael has a weakness: He can’t put the eye drops in his own eyes. Thus, the Apollo provides the perfect situation for the boys to grow closer. It forces Raphael into the state of a helpless child and gives Okenwa a reason to come into his room—a place where Okenwa has never been before—and be close to him. When Raphael’s Apollo clears up, Okenwa even “wishe[s] he had not healed so quickly” (57). When Okenwa comes down with Apollo himself, he assumes that Raphael will come to visit him. In his mind, Raphael owes him not only an apology for giving him Apollo but also care in exchange for the help Okenwa provided him. The fact that Raphael does not help take care of Okenwa while he has Apollo reflects the one-sided romance between them.
Apollo also resonates symbolically in ways that deepen its connection to the boys’ relationship. As a communicable disease, it indicates the physical closeness of the boys, which both their shared gender and their different social statuses render taboo. When Okenwa’s parents guess that he caught Apollo from Raphael, Okenwa is therefore quick to claim he got it at school. He cannot, however, conceal the implications from himself, “fear[ing] that something inside [him] [is] thawing that was not supposed to thaw” when he wakes with Apollo (58). That Apollo is also an eye disease—one that obscures vision—suggests Okenwa’s misreading of Raphael and the story’s broader interest in Perception, Transformation, and Loss of Innocence.
Books are mostly associated with Okenwa’s parents, and they symbolize both his parents’ expectations of him and the broader pressure to conform to a heteronormative society. Okenwa’s parents expect him to love books the same way they do, but Okenwa cannot meet their expectations no matter how hard he tries. He worries about this fact, saying, “[R]eading did not do to me what it did to my parents” (14). As a fixed feature of Okenwa’s personality, his disinterest in reading parallels his orientation. He attempts to perform intellectualism for his parents, but both he and they sense how inauthentic it is: “[W]hen I spoke about a book, I knew what I had said was not incorrect but merely ordinary, uncharged with their brand of originality” (14). Similarly, many gay men—especially in anti-LGBT environments—will try to perform heteronormativity, knowing that it can never be truly authentic. The pressure Okenwa feels to hide his true self pervades the entire house, as represented by the books, which encroach even into his private space and make him feel alienated and lost: “My bedroom had bookshelves, stacked with the overflow books that did not fit in the study and the corridor, and they made my stay feel transient, as though I were not quite where I was supposed to be” (14).
Significantly, the places in the house where books are not present are the places where Okenwa feels freest to be his authentic self—and where his feelings for Raphael are most intense. The two of them play together in the backyard, which is where Okenwa experiences the first sparks of physical attraction to Raphael. They grow closer still in the privacy of Raphael’s room, which is notably “uncluttered by objects” (54). Where books are not present, so too are the pressures of heteronormative expectations removed, and Okenwa’s true self flourishes.
The kung fu motif contrasts with that of books, representing both freedom and gay identity. Okenwa contrasts his inability to love books with his natural love of kung fu, which he practices only in private. When Raphael discovers him practicing, Okenwa feels embarrassed until Raphael signals that he is also a fan. Okenwa describes the moment’s “thrill” in words that call to mind one closeted gay teenager discovering another and realizing they are not alone: “I was twelve years old and had, until then, never felt that I recognized myself in another person” (16). Likewise, kung fu is the central catalyst that sparks Okenwa’s romantic feelings for Raphael, while also functioning as an escape from the pressures (heteronormative and otherwise) that Okenwa’s parents put upon him.
By Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie